My frustrations

So, we went to court last Tuesday and the judge gave us full legal custody with Brittany. I was so happy and relieved. The judge didn't terminate her parental rights, so Renae could petition to go back in front of the judge to prove she's fit...which I doubt she ever will be. I was in a euphoric state until Thursday night. Charlie's stupid sister called...the FIRST time (mind you) that she has called us in four months!!! She wanted to talk to Brit. I said no... So she preceded to keep calling back and finally left Charlie an ugly voicemail. This pissed me and Charlie off. When I was listening to that voicemail - I could feel my bloodpressure rising and my mommy claws coming out. We decided together that Renae wouldn't speak to Brittany until we felt like it was ok. Well Friday night - I wasn't at home yet...Renae calls again and Charlie lets her talk to Brit. When I found out, I was behind angry. I felt like Charlie had stabbed a knife in my back. We had decided together that we wouldn't let Brit talk to her mother... We got into a fight about it - I didn't realize how hard of a time Charlie was having dealing with his sister until he finally told me Friday night. He still loves her - that's his sister - but I tried telling him that this person has been taken over by drugs and that it's not really his sister. He still feels a little sorry for her... Me on the other hand - I don't feel the least bit sorry for her. I wouldn't even spit on her if she was on fire... I know that's terrible, but I just can't help it. When the judge gave us the good news Tuesday, I finally felt like we could move on with our life as a family - and that maybe it's mine and Charlie's time - just maybe we can finally have our own baby. But when that stupid dingbat called again, I felt like she was trying to take my life away from me. I'm not giving her anymore of my time. I'm finished with her... I'm Brittany's mommy now - more so than she's ever thought about being. Biology is the least part that makes up a real family....